Deep Sleep in Pain

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Right after thirty-nine years of living, I was at the portal of death.

I suffered Acute Glomerolunephritis and was treated with hydrocortisone. After sixteen months I got Guillain-Barre Syndrome. In 2006, this illness was considered rare. One of its symptoms is ascending paralysis.

On the eve of August 19, 2006 I was rushed to the hospital because it became very hard for me to grasp my breath. I would not swallow food. I would not urinate and no bowel movement for five days. I would not walk. I felt severe pain all over my body. I suffered water retention [edema]. In the afternoon of the next day I was transferred to the Intensive Care Unit. I asked for a priest because I felt that I needed the last sacrament “anointing of the sick”.

The following day I was disoriented of time, environment and with the people around. Three of my eight attending physicians told me to strengthen my faith in God and pray a lot. They promised to pray for me too. Then I fell in a deep sleep.

I still heard some messages from my sisters, brothers and husband. I would not see them anymore. The severe pain was always aggravated. It was the very moment that I gave up my life to the Lord.

I travelled from one place to another. Some places were the ones where I have been. Many others were new to me. I met nice people to talk with. I did not have strange feeling to the people I encountered. I felt I was just in new places. Whenever I talked with them I was always reminded of my teenage sons. Repeatedly I would hear the voice of my husband “fight for the sake of our sons, let’s go home soon”. I felt the emptiness. I was always longing to hug them. I always prayed to be given the chance. I was very hopeful.

Coma is a state of unconsciousness in which the patient does not reply to verbal stimuli, may have varying response to painful stimuli, does not move voluntarily, may have altered respiratory patterns, may have altered pupillary responses to light, and does not blink. In general, the longer the coma lasts, the more likely it is irreversible. [Black, Joyce 8th edition]

After six days of travel, I woke up. I felt I came from a very deep and long sleep. I had a feeling that I rested quite long but still in severe pain. I would not move any part of my body. The attending nurse taught me how to open my mouth and she brushed my teeth. I would not even do the close-open exercise of my fingers. I would not do the thumbs up. Lying in bed, I would not even manage to turn right nor left.

State of coma is not just sleeping in-depth nor being subconscious. Severe pain is inescapable. It would make you give up your life and be with the Lord and have a peaceful rest.

Those moments were considered as severe depression for me and my family. However, we remain steadfast in hope. We believed firmly that God will give chance to persons He loved the most. God’s intervention was always there. Friends offered spiritual support. Priests paid regular visits and prayed unceasingly.

I was then sure of something special. God always give chance to hopeful faithful.

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23 thoughts on “Deep Sleep in Pain

    carlz said:
    October 1, 2010 at 5:29 am

    ..god given you second life ma’am evz because you are one of his servants..jejejejeje
    ..padayun sa pag.paayo ma’am.jejeje
    :))

    Mirror Justice said:
    October 2, 2010 at 6:08 am

    keep the hope always
    alive

    jolina said:
    October 9, 2010 at 1:19 pm

    “life has its ups and downs.. but when u have God you cant go anywhere but up” tita, take care ca lgi. andito lan kami always for you tita lalo na ang family and friends nyo po 🙂 always pray to God po. deserving kayo masyado bigyan ng second life tita. 🙂 ingat po. goodless po.

    jolina said:
    October 9, 2010 at 1:43 pm

    ..Christ makes you strong enough to handle anythings that comes your way 🙂 ..enjoy ca lagi tita. take care always. 🙂

    Anne Al-ag said:
    October 10, 2010 at 8:39 pm

    You are one of those special to the eyes of our Living God. I believed that our awesome God granted your family and friends’ prayer for your mission has not yet ended. Remember that y
    you’re one of the heroes of Dona Carmen Denia. May GOD bless you always.

    bendedspoon said:
    October 13, 2010 at 7:25 am

    you are blessed
    for being a blessing.
    it always come in full circle
    🙂

      evzamagallanes responded:
      October 21, 2010 at 5:07 am

      thanks for the comment i am indeed blessed… you will also be blessed always

    gelma b. kiyamco said:
    February 4, 2011 at 3:09 am

    Deep sleep in pain,this selection was touch my heart so much ,because she suffer of her sickness and pain , then she prayed for her self to god , and god loved her .and give her response. god give her chance to the person she loved the most.Like her husband ,her sister and for her beloved son.

    johnreneentice said:
    February 14, 2011 at 1:33 am

    indeed life is full of challenges, struggle and pain, yet life is beautiful. There is always God who hears and help us carry our load if we will just call on Him. God’s love and power worked on you… an evidence that miracle could happen today as it happened yesteryears ago. You touched my life ma’am. God bless you always.

    aerosjanejimenez said:
    February 23, 2011 at 4:19 am

    🙂 beiNg sIck is aLso GOD’s challenge to you to knOW how long does you have a faith in him…

    and that is one of the challenge he given to you..to know how long does your faith lenghten,,
    as of you survive gOD has a will for you and use you as a ruler…as you continue your journey..
    :)GoD given you a chance to fill your life..and continues your journey ahead!!;)

    angelicadepaz said:
    February 23, 2011 at 4:26 am

    don’t lost hope of any tragedy that comes in your life…god will always at your side,,if we are in the tragedy all we can do is just to pray ,beacuse god will listened to us………

    christy joy aragon said:
    March 2, 2011 at 4:16 am

    DEEP SLEEP IN PAIN !!!!!

    tama talaga sila mam ev’z, siguro pagsubok lang talaga yang dumadating sayo na sakit mo upang mapatunayan mu na may hope at saka faith ka talaga sa ating panginoon, …….

    all we can do is to pray to our living GOD , and dont ever lost hope because GOD will never forget you !!!! and alsa GOD will always hear you !!!!!:)

    mary jean imperial said:
    March 2, 2011 at 4:50 am

    we all know that god love us and cared us..he gave us challenges in life for us also to survive in this world..and also for us to be strong…but,sometimes we forgot to call him,praise him and thank him for what he have done for us…..he sacrifices all of his self just for us,but we didn’t appreciated his sacrifices….

    and you and your family deserves for that chance.
    thank you for this opportunity and for sharing your life to us…god bless you maam

    Lmancera said:
    March 4, 2011 at 3:45 am

    it’s true that GOD is always there at all times..

    just pray,don’t lose your will at the same day and time and forgiveness is important..
    sana isapuso natin ang paglililngkod sa TAAS dahil siya lamang ang nakakaalam..

    GOD BLESS AND MORE POWER……

    maryvicramirez said:
    March 4, 2011 at 4:00 am

    HI MAM EVZ…!!!!

    FOR ALL WE KNOW THAT , GOD WILL ALWAYS THERE FOR US ,
    SO MAM EVZ, DONT EVER LOST HOPE ,BECAUSE GOD WILL NEVER SURRENDER TO FULLFILL ALL YOUR NEEDS.

    GOD BLESS YOU MAM EVZ. !!!!

    :> :>

    ronemiedellosa said:
    March 11, 2011 at 12:03 am

    tama……………wag kang mawalan ng pag asa …….lord help us ……….just pray ………..

    romeoamparo said:
    March 11, 2011 at 12:39 am

    ahm mam lahat ng tao sa mundo simula pagsilang hangang pagtanda ay mayroon ng pag subok kaya kong hindi mo ito malamlampasan siguradong hindi mo matutupad ang iyong pinapangarap ………thankx mam……….god blesss……….. i hope na magiging mabait ka parin sa akin

    lemuel abadilla said:
    March 11, 2011 at 12:41 am

    Disease is always issue for everyone so i admit that it is my greatest fear to have ailments like what I read. Pity is what i felt when i read that text . Just be faithful to god and believe to him.
    So pray that risky thing would not happen again.

    cheryginbatoto said:
    March 11, 2011 at 12:41 am

    .,.yes being sick is challenging…so that dont give up..and always pray to god….:)

    kim leones said:
    March 11, 2011 at 8:50 am

    always ready..for what sickness will come to us..always pray to our God..and faith him..we are so blessed cause God is always there and support us..

    almathea joy lazo said:
    March 18, 2011 at 12:19 am

    .. hmp. tama …

    >> lahat naman tlga tau may pgsubok sa buhay . kya wag nating kalimutan ang pgdadasal at wag mawalan ng pag-asa .. always pray to god dahil sya lang ang mkatutulong sa atin . .. 😀

    just remember ..

    ` GOD iS ALWAYS WATCHiNG US ^.^

    ladyannmariebelo said:
    March 18, 2011 at 12:20 am

    ..mag-ingat palagi sa mga gawain at tayo ay palaging magdasal sa dios..Thankz ma’am god bless.

    kpanchovilla said:
    March 18, 2011 at 12:23 am

    after i read the text,i started thinking the things ive done before…i realize god is our hope,he is our creature.god maid us, so watever pain or hurt we have,we need to pray in trust him,too shy to say…before,i never believe him,i’ve doubt to trust him because i never feel he loves me,but my mom said,god love me…maybe i need to satisfied what i have nowadays.

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